To My Valentine,

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I remember that day, from a distance I noticed that you were looking directly into my eyes. I looked the other way just to ignore your gaze but when I looked back, you were still looking deep into the windows of my soul. You conveyed yourself to me even just with your eyes and I didn’t know what to feel. 

The following day, I tried to get you out of my sight. I kept myself unavailable to anyone and read my books instead, as to not catch another glimpse of you.

The next day, I plugged in my earphones and focused on my phone, ignoring the world. But then the music toned down the moment you passed by me and from my peripheral vision, I saw you sitting on the chair at my right, looking at me intently. So I finally looked at you… and you smiled. You stretched out your arms and offered me a hand but I didn’t know if I was obliged to reach for it so I only kept staring at it thinking of what I was going to do, and you let it hang in there for seconds. I chose to focus at my phone again. 

And then you said “Hi Camille.” Shocked that you knew my name, I looked back at you and you smiled once more at me and said, “You’ve finally heard me.”

That moment you approached me was the very moment I stopped feeling alone. I asked you why you kept looking at me and you said “You were never out of my sight” - that statement made my heart melt.

I was the happiest person every single time we walked around the mall, the campus… everywhere. You proudly held my hand in front of everyone and you never, even for a second, let me go.

The flowers you’ve sent me every spring is one of those unique ways that you’ve reminded me that I was indeed special. 

I love how after every tiring day of school, you were there… patiently waiting for me outside the classroom, with a snack in your hand and smile on your face. And after I’ve gotten home and am up late at night finishing tons of homework, you made sure that I had the energy to finish everything. 

I love how you’ve never gotten tired of listening to me. The way you ask me “How was your day?” is enough to let our conversation go on until I fall asleep on your shoulder. And early every morning, you would open the lights and sit outside the bathroom keeping me company because I was afraid of taking a bath alone in the room. You’ve even helped me decide whatever I’ll be wearing for that day!

There were also days when my head ached and in the next minute you were knocking at my door with meds and glass of water.

Do you remember the day I cried because I got a zero on an exam? You hugged me so tight that I could hear your heart beating. Then you held my face, looked at me, wiped my tears and said “That zero will never decrease my love for you.”

You told me that you knew how many strands of hair I had and that you surely knew every bone in my body. You knew every single bit of me even the deepest, darkest, and dirtiest part of my heart. What’s interesting is that you never leave me even if you knew all of that and you never got disgusted about how dirty I got but instead, continued to love me.

One day as we were talking over a bowl of chips, you asked me about the characteristics I look for in someone I’ll be spending my future with, and I answered “Someone future-oriented and willing to sacrifice everything for me.” I stopped for a moment and looked at you… and you were smiling. 

The smile you wore on your face the day you called my name and I was shocked is the same smile you're wearing the moment I looked at you. That smile ... Your smile - it's something I can look up to every single day, that smile assures me that that you love me when I fall asleep and still love me the moment I wake up. 

As I was looking at you, figuring out what that smile meant, you hold my hand. 

Little did I know that you were the one I was describing. You’re the best future-oriented person that I could think of because you have planned everything way before I was even introduced into this world, way before I have developed my senses, and way before I even knew you.

You know every mistake that I will be committing in the future, but you let me because that’s how much you love me. You value my freedom to choose whatever I want and whatever my heart desires. Even though you know that I would fail to achieve those desires, you let me because that’s how much you love me. But that doesn’t end there! You love so much that you will never let me be in that situation, so every time I make the wrong decision, it is you who redirects me to where I should be – to where you wanted me in the first place.

I wanted someone who will sacrifice everything for me, but you – YOU WERE THE SACRIFICE. I was in debt because of my sin, but you paid the price. By your blood I was cleaned; by your blood I was bought. Every drop  of blood running down your face connects every piece of my broken body. 

It’s been 3 years of being aware of this great love. And with every year, it only gets better.

Thank you my Love.