To My Valentine,
Happy
Valentine’s Day, my love. It’s the 3rd year we’ll be celebrating
this day together. I love you and I will always be thankful for everything you’ve
done for me!
I remember that day, from a distance I noticed that you were
looking directly into my eyes. I looked
the other way just to ignore your gaze but when I looked back, you were still looking deep into the
windows of my soul. You conveyed yourself to me even just
with your eyes and I didn’t know what to
feel.
The following day, I tried to get you out of my sight. I kept myself unavailable to anyone and read my books
instead, as to not catch another glimpse of you.
The next day, I plugged in my
earphones and focused on my phone, ignoring the world. But then the music toned down the moment you passed by me and from my peripheral vision, I
saw you sitting on the chair at my right, looking at me intently. So I finally looked at you… and you smiled. You stretched out your arms and offered me a hand but I didn’t know if I was
obliged to reach for it so I only kept staring at it
thinking of what I was going to do, and you let
it hang in there for seconds. I chose to focus at
my phone again.
And then you said “Hi Camille.” Shocked that you knew my
name, I looked back at you and you smiled once more at
me and said, “You’ve finally heard me.”
And that was start of OUR extraordinary story.
That moment you approached me was the very moment I stopped
feeling alone. I asked you why you kept looking at me and you said “You were
never out of my sight” - that statement made my heart melt.
I was the happiest person every single
time we walked around the mall, the campus… everywhere. You proudly held my
hand in front of everyone and you never, even for a
second, let me go.
The flowers you’ve sent me
every spring is one of
those unique ways that you’ve reminded me that I was indeed special.
I love how after every tiring day of school, you were there… patiently waiting for me outside the
classroom, with a snack in your hand and smile on your face. And after I’ve gotten home and am up late at night
finishing tons of homework, you made sure that I had the energy to finish everything.
I love how you’ve never gotten tired of listening to me. The way you
ask me “How was your day?” is enough to let our
conversation go on until I fall asleep on your shoulder. And early every morning, you would open the lights and sit outside
the bathroom keeping me company because I was
afraid of taking a bath alone in the room. You’ve even helped me decide whatever
I’ll be wearing for that day!
There were also days when my head ached and in the next
minute you were knocking at my door with meds and glass of water.
Do you remember the day I
cried because I got a zero on an exam? You hugged me so tight that I could hear
your heart beating. Then you held my face, looked at me, wiped my tears and
said “That zero will never decrease my love for you.”
I remember asking you how you knew my name and you told me
that you knew everything about me.
You told me that you knew how many
strands of hair I had and that you surely knew every bone in my body.
You knew every single bit of me even the deepest, darkest, and dirtiest part of my heart.
What’s interesting is that you never leave me even if you knew all of that and
you never got disgusted about how dirty I got but instead, continued to love me.
One day as we were talking over a bowl of chips, you asked
me about the characteristics I look for in someone I’ll be spending my future
with, and I answered “Someone future-oriented and willing to sacrifice everything
for me.” I stopped for a moment and looked at you… and you were smiling.
The smile you wore on your face the day you called my name and I was shocked is the same smile you're wearing the moment I looked at you. That smile ... Your smile - it's something I can look up to every single day, that smile assures me that that you love me when I fall asleep and still love me the moment I wake up.
As I was looking at you, figuring out what that smile meant, you hold my hand.
Little did I know that you were the one I was describing.
You’re the best future-oriented person that I could
think of because you have planned everything way before I was even
introduced into this world, way before I have developed my senses, and way
before I even knew you.
You know every mistake that I will be committing in the
future, but you let me because that’s how much you love me. You value my freedom to choose whatever I want and
whatever my heart desires. Even though you know that I would fail to achieve
those desires, you let me because that’s how much you
love me. But that doesn’t end there! You love so much that you will never let
me be in that situation, so every time I make the wrong decision, it is you who
redirects me to where I should be – to where you wanted me in the first place.
I wanted someone who will sacrifice everything for me, but
you – YOU WERE THE SACRIFICE. I was in debt because of my sin, but you paid the
price. By your blood I was cleaned; by your blood I was bought. Every drop of blood running down your face connects every piece of my broken body.
How can I not be in love with someone like that?
With someone like You?...
Jesus.
It’s been 3 years of being aware of this great love. And with
every year, it only gets better.
Thank you my Love.
